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My brain gave me the sense that I was just floating about in the pitch black. I was unable to feel anything in my body, and the only thing that I was able to focus on was the fact that I was in completely dark and quiet.

Strangely It was pleasant, but I couldn\'t put my finger on what exactly made it so relaxing maybe it was the lack of light or the complete absence of sound, but I have no idea and I don\'t want to find out.

"Allen" Who is Allen? As I was hearing the name, I thought to myself, "Allen, wake up," but then I heard again, "Allen for fuck sake." "Wake up!" the voice yelled once more, and this time my eyes snapped open I tried to stand up in a hurry, but I hit my head on something; "Thank god your awake, let\'s go Lieutenant is calling everyone, there is a new recruit is joining us today" I heard a man\'s voice say.

"Ahhh fuck, why did you wake me up like that dumb ass?" I asked the man as I jumped out of the vehicle I was sleeping beneath he had awakened me up so abruptly that I banged my face as I stood up quickly.

I saw a man with dirty blond hair and brown eyes, with the fit body of a soldier, as soon as I peered out. He was dressed in a soldier outfit, and he remarked, "Oh come on, we\'re going to be late," as he stretched his hand towards me. I grabbed his hand and rose.

"So what is it about? A new recruit?" I asked the man, "why didn\'t you hear when I told you just a second ago" he remarked, as he started to walk faster towards the Indore briefing area, "come on Randy tell me what it\'s all about?" I asked him as I ran to catch up to him,

"Ya ya sure, the lieutenant asked everyone to gather in the briefing area, a new recruit is joining us today, apparently she is a girl," he said as he looked at me with a knowing smile.

"Is that all you think of? Get your head out of your ass," I heard another voice, I looked back just to see that Cindy was walking right behind us, she Ran up to Randy and slapped the back of his head.

She was wearing a black tank top, her shirt was wrapped around her waist,

"Oh come on it\'s the first woman in our platoon," Randy said as he rubbed the place where Cindy had slapped him,

"What the fuck do you mean first Women? What the fuck am I then?" Cindy asked, clearly enraged at not being recognized as a woman.

​ "Well look at yourself, you have too much muscle, the way you talk? Who in their right mind would calls you a woman?" Randy asked,

\'Dude you might have balls of steel,\' I thought as I looked at him in pity, he was looking for death. I thought and I was right, as soon as I thought this, Cindy had done something that made me clench and cover my family jewels,

"AHHH" Randy fell grabbing his privet part, as Cindy kicked them, and she was wearing the boots that we are given they are pure leather, I think his eggs might have been crushed beyond repair, I could even see some blood cumming out.

I silently prayed for is balls.

And carried on walking.

"Hay Allen, so what do you think a new girl is joining why not take your chances?" she said to me with a wink,

"Haha very funny," I said, as I kept on walking,

We were in a small base in the middle of nowhere, we are deployed on missions every month, there is no time for love in the life of soldier, I thought as I kept on moving and looked around the area, it was a small military base, with heavily armored vehicles, all around the place, there were around 100 soldiers, that means that there are two platoons in this small base, its mainly used for fuel refilling, and storing ammo, we deliver the fuel and ammo to the front lines, most of the time and sometimes we are deplored on missions which we receive from the higher-ups.

"Oh come on, how long are you going to stay single, you don\'t take holidays, you are a workaholic. Some love might loosen you up a little." Cindy said as she smacked my back,

"If you don\'t want to I can, or any other man in our platoon can," Randy said,

"Now that I think about it there are two squads that are not complete, one is ours and the second one is from the second platoon," Cindy said, after glaring at Randy as if she would eat him alive.

\'Women are scary,\' I thought as I looked at her. They both joined at the same time I did, we had been living together ever since, the only time we were away from each other was when they left to meet their families.

I never had a family, I have struggled my whole life, trying to get food, shelter, getting money, it was so tough I stole food at times, I stole things from houses and then sold them to make money, for the Orphanage.

After I turned of age, I joined the army and then slowly started to go up the ranks, to where I am today, it took me years but it was worth it as I didn\'t need to worry about food or shelter, I got everything I want here.

I sent all I earned to the orphanage back where I came from. It had been like this for years.

I was sent to many missions that I knew could kill me with one mistake, but what did I even live for? I never knew.

I tried to find a purpose in life but as I went through life and death situations I came to find out that there was no meaning in life, it was all meaning less, you live on and on for no fucking reason, the only reason I have not put a bullet through my head is that I didn\'t have the guts to pull the trigger myself, every mission I went on, I prayed to any god that was out there to make sure someone would target me and put a bullet in my head.

However that never happened, I struggled to hold on to dear life, again and again, I got shot but I got right back up, shooting back at them, my head would just go numb, I shot without thinking I killed without thinking, and at the end of every bloody battle I was still standing, somehow the only person who would want to get shot in the head would survive every single fucking time.

Oh the irony of life, it\'s funny, to be honest.

"Hahaha" I couldn\'t help but laugh when I think of this.

"What the fuck are you laughing about," Randy asked,

"Ya what\'s so funny that you are laughing to yourself," Cindy asked me, as both Randy and Cindy looked at me with a frown on their faces.

"Ah it\'s nothing, Let\'s hurry up we are going to get late," I said as I started to walk a little faster and soon we reached the briefing area.

As we reached the area I could see that there were many people there. Our whole platoon was standing in rows of five each, as each squad was standing behind their squad leader, as soon as I entered I stood at my position, while Randy, Cindy, and Kidd stood behind me.

Kidd was the fourth member of our squad he was the sniper of our team.

As for Cindy, she is a hand-to-hand combat specialist, while Randy ahem well he is just Randy I guess, he isn\'t a master of anything, as for me I am a Master weapon specialist, I can use every weapon.

"Alright Attention" a man with many scars on his face and a bold head shouted as he entered the room, as he did everyone stood in attention position, the sound of our booths vibrating the ground itself,

"We are gathered here for two reasons, first is that we have a recruit that Will be joining our platoon today." As Lieutenant said this the door to the side opened and then a woman entered the briefing area, she had blond hair and beautiful blue eyes, she was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen in my life.

"This is here is the recruit, her name is Sara Norris she will join the squad Headhunters," he said as everyone looked at our squad.