BXBX NOVEL Chapter 213 - I Hate Myself For Loving You
"What do you want?" asked Anya.
She was currently sitting on Aiden's lap. Her hands grabbed Aiden's shoulders to balance herself, while Aiden hugged her waist and rested his head against Anya's chest.
"I want to hug you like this. Feel your warmth near me," Aiden said in a low voice.
"Do you think I'll be fooled with that sweet mouth of yours at a time like this?" said Anya.
Aiden just smiled at his annoyed little cat. He looked at Anya who was still stubborn in his arms. The man could understand why his wife was acting like that.
Aiden knew what Anya was thinking.
"Harris told you to sign the agreement letter. I only ask one thing from him. I want you. I don't care about anything else. Harris has been working with me for years so of course he would think of me. If you divorce me without returning the money you borrowed, I will suffer a loss. Harris didn't want me to experience that so he asked you to sign the letter. It's not his fault," Aiden explained patiently.
"Do you dare to swear that you don't want my mother's garden at all?" asked Anya.
"I, Aiden Atmajaya, will not retract my own words. I married you because I wanted you, not because of that land." Aiden looked at Anya closely. "Do you think I will agree to divorce you?"
Anya shook her head slowly. "I know it's not easy for you to agree to divorce, but I still have to divorce you."
"Now that you know that I will never divorce you, what are you worrying about? The agreement letter binds you so that you will never leave me. As long as you are still by my side, you don't have to pay all that debt and your mother's garden will be fine," said Aiden.
"What?" Anya blinked her eyes. Her brain seemed unable to understand Aiden's words.
"I used stupid means to keep you by my side. Anya, there is no word for divorce in my dictionary. Do you remember what I said?" Aiden held Anya's chin and asked her to look at him.
Anya bit her lower lip. "You said so many things. I don't know which one."
"I said you can do whatever you want, but there's no divorce. All my life, until you die, you will always be with me. We will die together." Aiden's eyes, which were warm and soft before, turned cold.
"Until death…? Are you going to kill me?" asked Anya in a low voice.
"I just want to live with you forever. I don't want your mother's land and I don't want your money. All I want is you, only you. I have nothing in this world and you are the most important thing to me. Anya, don't you have a heart?" Aiden pointed towards Anya's heart. "Am I not good enough for you? Do I love you less?"
Anya seemed to be lost in Aiden's feelings that radiated from his eyes. She couldn't say anything.
As Aiden said, as long as they didn't divorce, her mother's garden would be fine.
Since the beginning of their marriage, Aiden had always emphasized that a divorce would be likely impossible. Although Anya could not confirm that her mother's garden was completely excluded from the project's plan, and even if Aiden didn't divorce her, it would still be hers.
The garden would not change owners.
"Aiden, if I weren' patient and didn't hold back my anger during our marriage, if I didn't try hard to please you by making eye masks, learning how to massage, and so on, would you still like me?" asked Anya.
"What do you really want to say?" Aiden frowned and looked at Anya in his arms.
"We can build trust and foster feelings between us. I fell in love with you first. I did everything I never did in all this time, just for you. I don't give up on our relationship when you are mad at me. After marrying you, I always tried hard to please you and I didn't get the same treatment from you."
"These two days, I thought that if I didn't fall in love with you and didn't try to please you, maybe you wouldn't love me back. Maybe we would've been divorced long ago and my mother's garden would have been razed to the ground." While thinking about this, Anya was terrified.
Aiden stroked Anya's face gently. "Anya, do you really love me?"
"Before my mother woke up, I really loved you. But now, I hate myself because I love you so much." Tears run down Anya's face. "We have to divorce and I will take back my mother's garden."
Aiden put his hand on Anya's waist, while his other hand opened the drawer on the nightstand. He gave a document to Anya, "I will return the letter of agreement. Do you still want a divorce?"
However, it was not what Aiden expected. Instead of taking the document and being happy because of Aiden's gift, Anya just stared at the document with a sad look.
"Aiden, I know you won't hurt me. But when you told me to sign this letter, you tricked me. I didn't ask for the letter. When I have the money, I will return all my debts and take back this land." Anya did not think twice and immediately refused.
"Anya, do you have to do this to me?" Aiden's voice was cold.
"You also did the same to me from the beginning when we got married," said Anya.
"I don't agree to divorce," Aiden said, suppressing his emotion.
"Then, see you in court," when Anya said that, she tried to get up and leave Aiden. However, Aiden immediately laid Anya on the bed and held her chin a little hard.
His eyes were filled with emotion as if he wanted to kill Anya right away.
"Are you going to kill me?" asked Anya in a slightly trembling voice. However, she kept looking straight at Aiden, trying to look brave.
"Since you are the one who wants to die, I will help you. I told you we will be together forever until we die." Aiden's big hand moved to Anya's neck. "Remember something. If you die, I can have your garden. I can displace it and make it whatever I want!"
Anya held Aiden's hand that was gripping her neck. She glared at him and shouted, "Aiden, if you dare to destroy that garden, I will never forgive you even after I died!"
Aiden just stared at her angrily. He seemed to be trying hard to control his emotions.
Was Aiden really going to kill her because she asked for a divorce? She's still young, she hadn't even finished college yet. Should she die right now?
"Aiden, are you really going to kill me?" asked Anya in a low voice. A single tear flowed from the corner of her eye.
"I love you so much. How could I let you die? Aiden's face looked like it was in pain. "But you want to leave me and return to Raka's arms. How can I survive knowing that fact? I was even willing to return the land to you using my two hands, but you borrowed money from Raka instead. It's better for us to die together than to let you be with another man."
Anya's eyes widened when she heard this. How did Aiden know that she borrowed money from Raka?
"Aiden, I did borrow money from Raka. But I didn't send my account number to him. I tried to sell my house first and solve the problem without anyone's help. I wouldn't have asked for his help, if you hadn't suddenly urged me to return the money right now," Anya explained everything in a weak voice.