BXBX NOVEL Chapter 283 I Can't Love You
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CHAPTER 282
"Yi Minsheng, we talked about this before, didn\'t we? I only see you as a friend. I can\'t love you," Bai Renxiang said.
"Why? You love him instead. Do you not know that Li Fengjin is a playboy? He toys with women and changes them like his underwear. He is only playing with you," Yi Minsheng reminded her.
"He is not playing with me or my feelings. He is good to me and he loves me. He proved it and I can feel it," Bai Renxiang said with a frown.
"That can all be an act. He is not to be trusted. Do you not get what I am trying to say? He and his friends are seasoned players." Yi Minsheng grabbed her shoulders tightly.
"Stop it. You are hurting me and I am leaning on the railings. The ground is very far from here and I do not want to fall off," Bai Renxiang scolded.
"I am sorry," Yi Minsheng apologised and stepped away from her.
Bai Renxiang took that opportunity to step away from the railings and moved to one of the chairs there. She sat down and Yi Minsheng sat close to her.
"So, do you now understand what I was trying to tell you?" He asked.
"Yes and no," Bai Renxiang answered plainly.
"You-"
"That playboy you see in my house with my son is the one I love. He and his playboy friends saved my life and my mother\'s," she said.
"So are you agreeing to be his girlfriend out of gratitude? You say you love him because he saved your life. Renxiang is he forcing you?" Yi Minsheng asked suspiciously.
"What the hell is wrong with you? Li Fengjin can never force me to do what I do not want not to even talk of forcing me to love him."
"How sure are you?"
"I am very sure. A hundred per cent, okay? He can never do that. At least that is what I know because he is not you," Bai Renxiang said in anger.
That is right. She was getting angry. How could she allow someone to ridicule her man? She could not let that happen.
She held back her anger just because she understood what Yi Minsheng was going through. At least that was what she thought.
But now, Yi Minsheng was going overboard. Bai Renxiang could not take it anymore. Her anger may have erupted into the sky. She was at her wit\'s end.
"What... Wh-What do you mean by that? What do you mean by he is not me?" Yi Minsheng asked. He was shocked as well as confused.
"I mean what you hear, Yi Minsheng. My Li Fengjin is not like you and he will never be. He did not force me to love him and he would try to ruin my happiness like what you are doing," she said.
"You told me about your feelings before and I turned you down because I did not feel the same for you. You wanted to still be friends and I readily agreed because that is how I have ever seen you. But I do not think you are my friend."
"Renxiang, please do not say that. I-"
"Hold it. I am not done," she raised her palm in front of him cutting him off. "A friend would never ruin the happiness of the people they claim to be their friend. As a friend you should be able to support me and at least trust in my decision. I already told you he has proven that he loves me. I told you that I know and I can feel that Li Fengjin truly loves ME. He can\'t force me and neither can you. The heart wants who it wants. No one can decide for it," saying this she stood up from the chair to leave.
"Bai Renxiang please wait. Try to understand me. I care a lot about you. I am sorry but I just can\'t see myself as your friend. Don\'t you get it? I am so much in love with you. I know you told me to forget about my feelings for you but I can\'t. It is too hard and painful seeing you with someone else even if... even if that someone is way better than I am," Yi Minsheng said softly.
"Sigh. Then I think it is best if we stop being friends," Bai Renxiang said.
"What? No. Why would you say that?" Yi Minsheng stood up from the chair and stood in front of her.
"Yes, Yi Minsheng. We should just stop being friends because I can\'t stop loving my boyfriend or let him stop loving me. So it would always be hard and too painful for you as you will be seeing us together often. As far as you do not stop loving me, you would always be hurt. Right now, all I can see is a love rival for Li Fengjin and not a friend, the Yi Minsheng I know," Bai Renxiang strengthen her resolve and took a step to leave the balcony.
"Wait, please," Yi Minsheng held her hand. "Please, don\'t do this to me. I still want to be... Sigh. I still want to be your friend. I still want to be able to talk to you and see you smile genuinely with me. So, please don\'t end our friendship. It hurt me. I beg you."
"We can\'t be friends if you still have feelings for me. I can\'t love you back. I don\'t want you or anyone else to be hurt. So it is up to you. Please, let me go," Bai Renxiang said.
Yi Minsheng reluctantly let go of her hands and Bai Renxiang left. Yi Minsheng has never felt something like this before. He felt as if he was let her go forever.
It was like he would never be able to see her again. He felt an excruciating pain in his chest and his breathing became laboured. Yi Minsheng weakly sat down on the chair as a tear slid down one of his eyes.
He felt like a weakling. He felt so many things at that moment that all he wanted to do was scream out his pain to the earth. But he could not as it was not his home or a place far from people.
Yi Minsheng settled his breathing and managed to cover his pain before he left the balcony. On getting to the living room, Bai Renxiang was seated with Li Fengjin and Bai Xiaojin.
"Aunt Jiang, I will be on my way now," he said.
"Oh! Have you told Renxiang you are leaving?" Jiang Meilin asked as she looked at Bai Renxiang who pretended she was not listening.
"Yeah. We have already said our goodbyes. I will see you some other time, Xiaojin. Take care of yourself," he forced a smile at the little boy.
"Okay. Bye Uncle Minsheng," Bai Xiaojin waved.
Without saying anything else after the slight nod he gave Li Fengjin, Yi Minsheng left the house. Mrs Yi perceived something might have happened with her son.
She noticed he looked down and was only putting up a front. She wondered what happened with the talk he had with Bai Renxiang.
"Sigh. Meilin, I will be on my way too. I had fun and it was nice meeting you, son-in-law," she said to Li Fengjin.
"It was nice meeting you too, Aunt Yi," Li Fengjin replied with a smile of his own.
"Bye everyone," Mrs Yi waved. Bai Renxiang just smiled while Bai Xiaojin waved back.
"Let me see you out, Mengsha," Jiang Meilin suggested before following Mrs Yi out.
"Mummy, you look down," Bai Xiaojin pointed out.
"What is wrong? Are you okay?" Li Fengjin asked Bai Renxiang.
"Nothing is wrong. I am fine," she said.
"You know, we can tell that you are lying," Li Fengjin said.
Bai Renxiang looked at Bai Xiaojin. He was staring at her with doubtful and worried eyes. She turned to Li Fengjin and it was the same. She let out another sigh and looked down at the drawing book they were playing with.
"I am going to use the restroom. My tummy feels tight. Tell Uncle Fengjin what is bothering you," Bai Xiaojin said and left.
\'Such a smart kid,\' Li Fengjin mused when Bai Xiaojin secretly winked at him before leaving.
"So, can you tell me what happened between you and the neighbour\'s son?" Li Fengjin asked.
Bai Renxiang immediately turned to him with wide eyes. She was shocked.
"What? You think I would not know?" He raised a brow. Bai Renxiang still looked shocked.
"Listen. Just because I was not close to you or looking at you does not mean I did not hear what you guys were talking about. I had my ears on you and I heard you guys wanting to go to the balcony to have a private talk. You came back like this," he explained.
"It\'s nothing serious."
"Did you break up with him?"