BXBX NOVEL Chapter 822 - Keep Thinking of Seeing Someone
However, when he saw Ren Xinghe’s bright eyes, he felt that he couldn’t reject her request. Finally, that one word changed into many words: “I will look for it.”
“Thank you.”
“When I find it, I will courier it to you.”
Ren Xinghe: “...”
After all, it was someone else’s house. So, Ku Jie didn’t want to stay for long. Just after eight o’clock, he made an excuse and left the courtyard.
When she looked at Ku Jie’s leaving figure, Ren Xinghe saw him off to the off-road vehicle. When she saw him opening the door, Ren Xinghe suddenly said: “Otherwise, I will go to the second-hand market to buy it.”
Ku Jie’s body stiffened, and suddenly it occurred to him that although Ren Xinghe seemed to let go of his hoarseness after moving, she was still that sensitive, suspicious and insecure Ren Xinghe.
As long as he said something that placed some distance between them, she would retract into the shell, which seemed to be a self-protection mechanism, a physiological state.
So, he rolled down the car window and rarely explained: “I don’t have time to come here every day, so I chose to use the courier.”
Ren Xinghe’s eyes were brighter, but despite this, she still refused: “It’s really not necessary. You are so busy and too lazy to find it. If you can’t, I will go to the neighbor.”
Ku Jie said nothing but he simply nodded and said: “Good night.”
Ren Xinghe smiled reluctantly, then turned and walked back.
Ku Jie watched her enter the small courtyard, and started off-road, and left the small courtyard.
Generally speaking, Ku Jie knew Ren Xinghe’s thoughts. Shewanted to depend on others but she was afraid of dependence. She brainwashed herself a hundred times a day, she could not trust anyone, could not accept anyone’s kindness, because that was poison, and that would make her lose her standing and strength.
She lived out the restraint and reason she deserved.
Therefore, Ku Jie felt that he was cruel, as if he was constantly releasing goodwill, and constantly releasing signals that she could rely on him. This, shaking Ren Xinghe’s life.
But, he couldn’t let his cares go, that kind of thing was like weeds, when the spring breeze blows, the jungle bloomed everywhere.
...
“Send him away?” After Ren Xinghe got home, Grandma Ren asked her while sitting on the rocking chair.
“Grandma...”
“That young man is a nice person and grandma can tell that he is a very sincere person. When I asked him a question just now, if it involved something he didn’t want to answer, he would rather not open his mouth than make up a lie. This means he disdains to lie. Although I don’t know where you met such a friend, grandma doesn’t object to you getting acquainted with him.”
Ren Xinghe smiled bitterly after listening to her grandma’s words: “I am just a female student in high school, why?”
“Little Star, don’t be too tired.”
Ren Xinghe heard her grandma’s words and nodded: “I’m going to review my homework.”
“Okay, we will wait until you finish the college entrance examination.”
Ren Xinghe had a hard time, because she wanted to have the right to choose herself. If she loses even the only opportunity for her college entrance examination, then she would have no future at all.
...
After returning home, Ku Jie entered the bedroom and searched for some clothes from the closet.
But after packing it, he threw it aside again.
This was because he had to figure out whether he had the qualifications to participate in Ren Xinghe’s life. After all, some things, once they start, there would be no way to end them.
How would clothes be so important between the both of them?
No, it was the connection that was too weak to find any excuses.
Lying on the sofa, Ku Jie submerged himself in the darkness. If it were before, he would feel accustomed to it, but today, he felt that something was different.
At this time, the brain-dead of Xiao K sent him a message: “Brother Jie, help me, help me forward the message to refute the rumors, hurry!”
Ku Jie took a deep breath and directly returned to him: “Give me your grandma’s number.”
“Brother Jie, my grandma will keep you up to ask questions and you will find it even more annoying.”
“Answer me a question, and I will help you. Why would someone suddenly feel that the house is big, the house is quiet, the house is very sleepy but can’t sleep, and he always wants to go to a place... always...”
He always wanted to see someone...
Ku Jie failed to mention the second of of the sentence, perhaps because even he himself was shocked.
“Why else? Lonely.”
Why would he be lonely?
He would be be lonely if he had care and thoughts.
He clearly kbew that it was a trouble, that was a problem, and he knew that there might be a big gap and many obstacles, but people were of this kind of lowliness. The more they could not do it, the more they wanted to do it.
“Come on, I’ll forward the message.”
Then, he took out his cell phone and sent a message to Ren Xinghe, because he knew that if he ignore his feelings, he would suffocate.
Jack Su: “Clothes, I found them. The place where I go to class is not far from where you work. I will deliver them tomorrow. What time are you there?”
At this time, Ren Xinghe was half-asleep and half-awake. When she suddenly saw the screen of her cell phone turned on, she was taken aback.
Ten minutes later, she did not return his message.
After half an hour, she did not return either.
Ku Jie knew that she was struggling, so he didn’t rush her, because he had already thrown out the right to choose and he felt comfortable.
Just after twelve o’clock, Ren Xinghe realized that she couldn’t find his sanity at all, so she replied: “School is over at 5:50pm, at 6:10pm, I have to leave and go to boxing class at 7 pm, and go home at 8 pm to study.
The both of them were of the same kind, so after the other party responded, they deeply understood what kind of gap they had opened towards the other party.
They felt anxious, uneasy, but also full of the only courage in this life.
They would never ask for anything easily and force themselves not to need it, but when there was a cathartic outlet for their feelings, they would become fuel and burn themselves completely until they became ashes.