BXBX NOVEL Chapter 51 - What Have You Done To Me?
Nicole could feel her heart beating faster only to match the sound she heard from the actor\'s heart. The rapid beating controlled her breathing and she ended up taking a deep breath not to lose control! She then closed and opened her eyes again to calm herself.
"You should know better than to say that, Aston Kang. You know I\'m not open to such talk." Her voice was cold but she still continued with treating his wounds. She was determined to make sure that he received the treatment.
She thought that he would ask her \'why.\' He always did that but when the actor opened his mouth, the words that came out of his lips made her stunned.
"How long do you think you\'ll be able to control yourself? I was told that feelings are not ones that could be controlled by us. You\'ll end up losing control, sooner or later." Aston seriously said as he narrowed his eyes at her.
She felt like she was told the thing which she feared the most! She knows the meaning of what he said. She was not a novice in this sort of feelings! She knows how powerful it was. That\'s the exact reason why she wished to stay away from it. Because it\'s too dangerous for a woman like her!
"That\'s none of your concern. My life and my fate is already planned years ago. I cannot indulge myself in such useless feelings. I already tell you that." She snapped.
"What\'s the use of such fate if you didn\'t want them? It\'s your life, Nicole!" Aston retorted. He watched her as she bandaged his wound. At her soft touch, his body was tense every now and then!
\'You have no idea about the way I live.\' She wished to say these words to him but she holds back herself to prevent all possible harm.
"If your life and fate are not controlled by you, then who did?" He asked which instantly made her met his gaze. "Your step-mother, the Minister of Justice?"
He still remembered how nervous and uncomfortable she was when she talked with her step-mother on the phone. Though he never said it, that troubled him all the time!
Just what was her secret? He wished to know it more than anything! He wanted to abolish whatever thing made her unable to go to him!
At the mention of her step-mother, Nicole quickly withdrew her hand from his body as if she touched some prohibited object! Rising from her seat, she covered her eyes with her left palm and sighed. "Just what do you want from me?!" She scowled.
Aston stood up and grabbed her right hand. He placed her hand on his chest and looked at her straight in the eye. "Can you feel this? I know that I\'m not the only one. Your heart is also pounding like crazy! Why won\'t you just accept it? You also want me just like I\'m crazy about you!"
Taking a deep breath, he asked, "What have you done to me, Nicole?"
"Throughout my whole life, I was never this scared! This is not me. I was never afraid of anything, even death. But now, I\'m afraid to not be able to see you, to be brushed away by you, to not have you in my life. I\'m scared of many things now!" He confessed as emotions took the best of him.
Nicole was convinced that she might go crazy if this goes on! Feeling both of their hearts that were beating faster than they should, she was tempted to accept her feelings and give him what he wants but... what will be the price for that?
Just once. If she lost control just once and accept him, what will happen to him? She was more worried about him more than herself! What if it cost him, his life?! She would surely break if that ever happens!
Breaking free her hand from his grip, she turned around so that she couldn\'t see his face. "Just go." She muttered.
"Nicole."
"Aston, please! This is for the best. Just leave." She pleaded.
The actor was amazed by how her tone changed. She was always so cold and cruel but when he sensed the helplessness in her voice, he couldn\'t just leave her.
Deciding to be persistent one more time, he walked forward and stood in front of her again! His eyes widened when he gets a clear look at her.
Did she cry? If not, then why else would her eyes be so red?!
"Nicole." He muttered her name and cupped her face but she brushed away his hand and took a step back which doubled the pain in his heart!
"Please leave. Give up on me." She begged in a low voice. Her head was lowered and never once had she met his eyes!
"Please don\'t do this to me, Nicole. How can I leave after seeing you like this?" He pleaded but when he took a step forward to reach her, she took another step back.
"I\'m used to it. So, please, just go. Don\'t ever come back here." She wanted to tell him all this was for his sake, for his safety! But if she did that, he would surely become more adamant! She cannot let that happen.
The pain in his heart becomes too much for him to bear! How she took a step back, not wanting to be touch by him; that broke his heart and crumbled into pieces!
He stood still for a while until he picked up his shirt and wore it. He glanced at her one last time before he left the apartment, leaving her all alone.
Hearing the sound of her door being shut, all her energy were drained from Nicole\'s body! She abruptly sat on the floor yet her gaze was still fixated on the empty door.
He finally left her.
She was alone again.
The little sunshine that provided light and warm to her life had finally left.
She shuddered as darkness revolved around her and then fully covered and swallowed her body, her life and her everything.....