BXBX NOVEL Chapter 338 - Go, get the girl!
"I don’t want her to cry," he answered.
"Too late for that. She must be bawling her eyes out by now. This whole I-don’t-know-you act was not funny at all." Jie knew she was right. But what else could he do?
"I want her to realize how much pain my absence can bring. I need to make her realize that our relationship is not a joke. She can’t just pack her bags whenever she feels like we are going downhill. I need her with me even when I’m left with nothing. If she didn’t go through this pain today, she will never learn her lesson." Jie was fuming at the idea of how easy it was for Xu Mey to say that she’ll leave him.
"We took vows to stick together in sickness and in health. I don’t even understand how the hell is her mind working! How can she forget our love and just focus on this one bad news? Couldn’t she focus on the fact that there is another life growing inside of her?"
Was their relationship this fickle? One strike and you’re out!
Or did he not loved her enough? Where was he wrong?
And if he wasn’t wrong then how dare she even thought about leaving him alone?!
Even if he was wrong, she should wait for him to talk it out instead of deciding everything on her own!
"I love her more than I can even describe. You know how happy I was at just the idea of having a baby with her. It meant something new and different. We were supposed to walk into a new phase of our life. But she... She actually chose to walk back to where we started from. If she was hurt to see me like this then what about me? How am I supposed to live without her? Hell, I even made her my reason to breathe!" He was exasperated, tired, desolate, hurt and most of all, disappointed.
He looked up to see Ru staring at him with a pondering look. "Aren’t you gonna offer your oh-so-wise-words?"
"You don’t like my oh-so-wise-words," she reciprocated his earlier tone.
"I really need those words right now though."
"Okay then." Ru cracked her knuckles as if she was going on a fight and came to sit beside him and started, "You’re hurting her only to make her realize a point. What about yourself? Her single drop of blood made you uneasy. Her single tear crushed you a million times. Aren’t you torturing yourself worse than her?"
Jie stayed quiet. He knew she wasn’t asking. It was a statement he couldn’t dare to refuse. He was hurting inside with just the idea that in the room beside his, Xu Mey might be crying. This thought made him shudder.
"Now let me ask you again, is it worth it?" He looked at her in perplexion. "This suffering... for her... because of her?"
Jie lowered his eyes to look at his own wounds for a second longer before saying, "It’s all worth it. She is my lifeline. I can suffer for her. I don’t like seeing her suffer. Why else would I push her away and take the hit myself?"
"If you’re happy. It’s all worth it! I told you, you fell for a broken girl. And broken people don’t just walk out of their shadows of darkness that easily. Especially someone like Xu Mey whose mind is not even stable. If you think that all those drugs in her body did nothing then you are wrong. It messed up her mind and thinking. She had been so much manipulated from an early age that every bad thing makes her realize that she’s the wrong one." Jie was stunned for a second as she kept going on.
"Don’t be a jerk now. She’s pregnant and if she kept crying, it won’t be healthy for the baby. So, get your bloody arse out of here and talk to her. Playing the amnesia drama is not gonna help. Your words might do some good but your silence will only damage her further. Go back to her before her delusions take her somewhere you won’t be able to reach."
Jie pressed his lips together as it scared the living daylight out of him. His body was tingling now. He really wanted to run back to Xu Mey. This was enough of torture for both of them. He didn’t want to drag it out anymore. Who knew what crazy idea might she come up with again! Ru was right, he needs to knock some sense into her by himself.
He made an attempt to get up only to realize that he couldn’t walk.
"Need help?" Jie shot Ru a look and she backed off. Just pushed a wheelchair to him saying, "Go, get the girl!"
"Shut up!" Jie grumbled with a slight smile and with a support of the bed, he got on the wheelchair.