BXBX NOVEL Chapter 370 - She Was Never Alright
"Big sister, I know that you hate dad and that your hatred is justified, but please can you just close your eyes and visit him once in the hospital? I am a hundred per cent sure that he will agree to have the operation if you talk to him. I know I am asking for too much, but I don't have any other choice. I know that Big bro will never tell you this since he doesn't want you to make compromises...,"
"Xiaotian, if you knew that you were asking for too much, then why did you even bring up the topic?" Yang Zi asked sounding angry.
"What your dad did to me is unpardonable! His actions did not only cut short my sister's life, but because of him, my life was a living hell. Let me ask you have you ever feel the pain in your heart that you feel so suffocated? Have you ever been in pain that you think that putting an end to your life will be the only solution to your pain? Have you ever despised yourself and the entire universe?" Yang Zi asked sternly. She did not want to take out her anger on the innocent girl, but she couldn't control her boiling anger. The mere mention of her uncle's name brought back the years of her agony. She felt a rush of emotions and these emotions were too overwhelming.
"Xiaotian, I experienced all I have just mentioned because of your dad, so I don't care whether he lives or dies. His death has nothing to do with me and be sure to tell him that he should save his self-pity for himself," Yang Zi said before she walked away. The bewildered Xiaotian stood there and watched her walk towards the other side of the mansion.
"Xiaotian, I know you did not mean any harm but, you shouldn't have said those words to her," Xiaotian heard a guy's voice behind her. She turned to face the direction the voice came from.
"Xiaotian, you might not know since you never lived with her but the truth is Zi Er has been through a lot. Either when she was a child or now that she is an adult. She has been through unimaginable things. Her heart and world are torn apart right now. She might look very fine now, but we all know that our Zi Er is far from being alright. She is just hiding her pain behind those cold facades," Shiyi said in a serious tone.
"What I am trying to tell is that Zi Er is not in her right frame of mind right now. She is angry, that is why she said these mean words to you but I can assure you that she did not mean it. She is nicer than you think. I promise you that she will come around soon," Shiyi assured as he tapped Xiaotian by the shoulders.
"Xiaotian, go in now before they start searching for you. I will go talk to Zi Er now," Shiyi said before he walked towards the direction Yang Zi took.
Shiyi did not need to search for her for too long. He saw her standing in a corner with tears in her eyes.
"Why won't they just let me be? First, it was that jerk Li Yifeng, and now it is her. Haven't they hurt me enough? Haven't Li Yifeng and my uncle done enough damage to my life? I am just managing to stand strong, why do they want to make me crumble again? Why are they making my now perfect life difficult again? Since childhood, all I have done was shed tears, haven't I shed enough tears already? Would I continue to shed tears all my life?" Yang Zi said angrily, as she tried to control the rate at which her tears flowed.
"I am tired of crying. I am tired of regretting it. Yang Zi is tired of weeping over her failed love. I just want to live normally. All I want right now is to live a peaceful life with my baby and my friends, won't they at least give me these? Am l perhaps asking for too much," Yang Zi said, as she hiccuped in between her silent sobs.
Shiyi hid in a corner and watched her. He knew that for Yang Zi to have come here to cry, meant that she did not want anyone to see her cry.
He knew that all she wanted was for everyone to think that she was ok and he would keep her secret.
I am the only one who knows my Zi Er best. She can fool every other person except me. She is not fine and she was never alright.
Shiyi thought as he continued staring at her. He watched her until she stopped crying. While the two were outside, those inside were searching for them. Xiaotian who was afraid that her secret might be discovered did not utter a word about seeing them outside the mansion.
Seeing Yang Zi head in his direction, Shiyi hurriedly left where he was hiding. He went and stood close to the flower in front of the mansion pretending, as though he was getting fresh air.
Yang Zi walked over and stood beside him.
"So Shiyi, how have you been these two years?" Yang Zi asked, staring into space.
"I am fine. And I am proud to tell you that I have taken our company more seriously. I now work longer hours in the office unlike in the past where I hardly dropped by at the office," Shiyi said pridefully.
"Are you really going ok or are you pretending to be doing perfectly ok? Are you going around deceiving everyone with these fake smiles, words and expressions of yours?" Yang Zi asked, as she turned and stared at him.
"What do you mean, Zi Er?" Shiyi said, not understanding what she was saying even a bit.
"How could you pretend to be fine when you broke up with the lady you loved? I mean which guy or lady in her right sense will be happy to break up with the only source of light and laughter in his life?" Yang Zi scolded.
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