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"You must be tired. You can go back to your room and rest. I'll take good care of my child. " He told me in a tone which was filled with a chilling civility.

He was right, I need to go back to my room. I have no reason to stay in his room any further.

My gaze stared back at Niall. There was a dull ache in my chest as I wiped the wetness at the corner of his eyes. I still wanted to stay, to hold him in my arms like a mother should but I felt that Lucas didn't want me there at all.

I couldn't blame him for hating me. I've done something unforgivable and no matter how much regret I have now, It's impossible to make him forgive me, especially that the wound was still raw.

But I still wonder if he would be able to forgive me one day even if it takes long.

"Goodnight Niall." I whispered to the child's ears and laid a soft kiss on his brow. He's a wonderful kid and I don't want him to get hurt once Lucas and I finally divorced. I must distance myself early so as to lessen the pain both of us will feel once we are separated.

I descended from the bed and grabbed my crutches which were leaning on the wall. But before I headed to the adjoining door, my gaze drifted to the sleeping angel on the bed and stole one last glance at my baby boy.

My gaze accidentally shifted to Lucas and our gazes locked with each other. He looked like the devil himself with that midnight eyes of his. I couldn't help but feel a shiver run down my spine as I fought his gaze.

"Goodnight Lucas." I was surprised that the words automatically flew out of my lips before I could even realize what I'm doing.

He didn't reply so I turned my back at him and slowly made my way to the door. I felt his gaze?follow me?until I reached the adjoining door?that?connects his room to mine and closed it behind me.

I lay on my bed but I didn't immediately fall asleep, which was what I planned. There were so many questions endlessly filling my thoughts, I couldn't answer a single one of them and frustration nibbled inside me because of that.

As I lay there in the middle of the dimly lit room, I couldn't help but wonder if my life would be a bit different if I didn't take for granted the love he once gave me so willingly?

With that question in my mind I finally fell asleep and found a peace of mind even if it's only temporary.

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It was dark…. Extremely dark that I couldn't see anything except the ominous darkness swirling around me.

There were voices…. Speaking in unison that it was hardly impossible to understand what the conversation was all about.

It's as if a song was playing into a cassette, and halfway through the song, the broken tape malfunctioned and it started sputtering an incomprehensible sound that pierced right through my ears.

My?eyes shut tightly and my hands automatically flew to cover my ears until I couldn't hear the sound anymore.

There was silence.

Slowly, I opened my eyes and found myself inside an unfamiliar room. Gone was the darkness, the black and white surroundings welcomed my sight.

There was a sense of belongingness springing within me the moment my eyes surveyed the surroundings. It feels as if I'd been there before and that I solely owned the place.

I padded across the room until I reached the door and lifted my hands to turn the knob only to stop as my eyes caught a glimpse of a wedding ring on my finger.

A gasp escaped my lips in surprise. But before I could further react, the door as if it had a mind of their own, automatically swung open.

When I stepped inside the other room, as if a magic button had been pressed, the surroundings changed. I found myself stepping into a bright hall, with glittering chandeliers hanging from the high ceiling.

The room was filled with people?whose faces I don't recognize one bit.

"Miss Chairwoman, congratulations on the success of your company!"

"AA cosmetics was a huge success."

"Congratulations for being the youngest Chairwoman in our country."

The voices filled my ears, temporarily paralyzing my whole body with confusion.

My eyes slam closed, my hand covered my ears, and waited until the voices drifted far away before I opened my eyes again.

"I will killll yooooouuuu."

An ear-shattering scream erupted from my lips as a pair of hands captured my neck. I wasn't in the ballroom with bright, glittering lights anymore. Instead, I found myself lying on the rough, pebbled ground in the middle of a dark deserted woods with a man trying to kill me.

"L-let go! L-let me go…" I pleaded. My hands worked to loosen the hand that was clutching my neck tightly. But my struggles were futile, I was no match for a man. Especially not when he's six foot tall with muscles as hard as a wall.

I was thrashing and fighting for my dear life but it seems I couldn't do anything to save myself from dying.

I couldn't breathe anymore …. I was slowly slipping away from consciousness….

Help me Lord, I prayed with eyes firmly shut. Helpless tears were flowing down my cheeks in abundance.

That moment when I thought it would be the end of my, my thrashing hands came in contact with a cold, hard object. It seems my captor forgot about his weapon.

'Lord forgive me..' I mumbled before raising the gun to his chest and pulled the trigger….