BXBX NOVEL Chapter 167 - SAD GOODBYE
Chapter 167 - SAD GOODBYE
I was so lost as I cradled his blood stained body into my lap. Watching him like this was so painfully impossible to put into words.
When I almost thought that I could be with him for the rest of my life then this tragedy suddenly struck. I don\'t even know if I will be able to see him again after this.
I held him tightly into my arms as I whispered his name over and over again. My tears abundantly flow like an endless waterfall down my cheeks.
There was a sudden piercing pain in my chest and I just ignored it and continued staring at Ace\'s face in fear he would be gone if I ceased looking at him.
It pains me so much to see him like this. While I held him, I couldn\'t help but wonder if he would be alright. If I lose him, I don\'t know how I will continue my life again. How would I accept the fact that he died instead of me? The thought filled me with so much anguish and I began sobbing once more.
The pain in my chest intensified, this time I couldn\'t ignore the intense pain and I fell back to the floor. I could scarcely breathe as thousands of needles seemed to pierce through my heart.
My fingers flew to my chest, clutching it tightly. I couldn\'t breathe anymore. Even Catherine\'s Grace\'s frantic voice calling an ambulance seemed to drift far away until I couldn\'t hear her voice anymore.
I reached for Ace\'s hand and entwined my fingers into his own, wishing that even after I wake up I will still be able to hold his hand the way I used to.
When my eyes fluttered open, I wasn\'t sure where I was. A blinding brightness covered the whole place. I blinked my eyes several times until I got used to my new environment.
When I looked around I could see nothing but white. I don\'t recognize the place at all.
My hands instantly flew in my chest after I realized the pain was almost gone.
"Phoenix!" I heard a man calling my name. Even if I have my eyes closed, I will still recognize him.
"Ace!" I shouted in joy. My eyes were surveying the place but to my surprise, I couldn\'t see him. All I could see were thick masses of white clouds floating around me.
I hurriedly moved forward in hopes to see him again. "Where are you, Ace?" I called out but there was no response.
"I\'m here…" He said.
"I can\'t see you." I replied. My eyes sweep over my surroundings. My heart sank when I couldn\'t find him.
Just when I was losing all hopes, I saw a man a few meters away from me and walking away from my direction. Even if he has his back on me I still recognized that it was Ace.
He was not there a while ago. He suddenly popped up there without me noticing.
"Ace!" I called out loudly but he did not even budge. He continues to move forward.
I started to run towards him but the more I ran the more the distance between us widened. But despite the distance that stood between us I continued to run until I was out of breath.
"Please wait for me, love."I pleaded, extending my right hand towards him. But Ace continued to walk as he didn\'t hear me say anything.
I stumbled to the ground and I fell on my knees. When I raised my head towards him, he was gone.
A nagging emptiness descended on me when my gaze surveyed the path straight ahead and found the place empty.
Uncontrollable tears raced down my flushed cheeks
The warmth of a hand laying on my shoulders captured my eyes. I raised my tear stricken face and saw Ace standing behind me.
I gasped and immediately rose from the ground.
"Ace." I sobbed, my eyes looking intently on his face and trying to memorize each detail.
He smiled at me but the glow didn\'t reach his eyes which made me feel something was wrong.?He reached out and cupped my face. The warmth of his palms against my skin comforted my soul.
"I need to leave." He said, his exquisite blue eyes gleaming with unfathomable sadness.
"W-why?" Shocked, I asked, my voice shaking. My fingers clung to the fabric of his shirt. I don\'t want him to leave. I just can\'t. It will break my heart.
"You will understand after you wake up. I needed to. It\'s for us…" He tried to explain as gently as he could but it still hurts like hell.
I blinked back the tears and swallowed the lump in my throat. "But I don\'t want you to leave. I love you…." I pleaded, my fingers tightened its hold around his shirt.
"I love you too, Phoenix. I never loved anyone the way I love you. And I shall never love another woman after you except our daughters…." He replied and wiped the tears I didn\'t know were flowing down my cheeks like a waterfall.
"Is leaving that necessary?" I asked in a hoarse whisper without tearing my gaze off his eyes.
"Yes." He responded. "It\'s for us both." He added.
"I\'m scared Ace… I\'m scared that you will never return." I sobbed.
He pulled me into his arms and he buried his head into my hair. Gently, his fingers caressed my hair as if trying to reassure me it\'s going to be fine.
I leaned my head to his chest and wrapped my arms around his waist. It felt so good to hold him close. I felt so calm and content while he wrapped me into his arms. But I know the happiness I feel now was only temporary. He needed to leave soon. And once he leaves I\'m not sure when he will return…
"Don\'t be scared, my love. It may take a long time but I will return, I promise."?He said and laid a soft kiss on my forehead. After saying the words his body starts to fade like smoke blown by the wind.
I weakly fell to the ground.. I buried my face into my palms and I started to cry once more.