BXBX NOVEL Ch188.1 - The Best Breakup Scene (1)
Chapter Ch188.1 - The Best Breakup Scene (1)
Translated by Eve
Edited by Serefina
13. The Best Breakup Scene (1)
Xie He hadn’t come back for a long time so Liang Chengshan went to look for him, concerned. As expected, he found Xie He still in the washroom. The other seemed to be going through an episode. He had fallen onto the floor with a pained expression on his face. Liang Chengshan went to hold Xie He at once. Worry filled his tone. “It’s fine now. Don’t be afraid. We’ll go home right away.”
Xie He was carried home. The other’s arms were warm. They made him feel like he could rely on them, that there was no reason to be scared...but this person was his enemy....
Was this real? If everything was real, how should he face this person?
He hated him...he really hated him....
The hatred that he had gone to great pains to forget...was that how he really felt? But they were so in love, ah....
Liang Chengshan brought Xie He home. He held him the whole time, comforting him. There was no dispelling the worry in his eyes.
A long time later, Xie He slowly opened his eyes. There was intense sorrow in his pitch-black eyes.
Liang Chengshan felt a baffling sense of unease. Xie He’s condition was really strange. Recently, he’d been having these frequent episodes without any warning. Furthermore, his mood was always downcast. Liang Chengshan tried his best to sound as soothing as possible. “Are you unhappy? Can you tell me why?”
Xie He spoke slowly, voice raspy. “I’ve been thinking about why I betrayed you. Everyone says that I’m a traitor, a liar...can you tell me...why I betrayed you?”
Liang Chengshan narrowed his eyes slightly. Obviously, it was because Xie He hated him and had originally come with intentions to kill him.... As for why Xie He hated him, it was probably because he had a grudge against him. But he had yet to find Xie He’s real identity. It was like he had just appeared in this world one day out of thin air.
Liang Chengshan was silent for a moment. He then said, “That’s all in the past. You don’t have to care about it.”
There was a sliver of ridicule on Xie He’s lips, practically unnoticeable. However, his eyes were full of sadness and hurt. He said, “But...your brethren all mind it. You’re going to marry someone who betrayed you...regardless of whether it’s your living subordinates or your deceased brethren, I think...they probably aren’t happy seeing you with me.”
Especially...my father....
He definitely doesn’t want to see us together. He was a cop and you are a criminal. You also killed him....
Xie He knew that he should trust Liang Chengshan but the voice inside of him told him that Hall had been telling the truth.... Meanwhile, the person he loved most had only been telling him lies.
Liang Chengshan peered into Xie He’s eyes. Suddenly, he felt like he was about to lose the other. But how could that be possible?
He had already made this person completely his. There was no way he could lose him.
Liang Chengshan held Xie He tightly in his arms and spoke in a soft voice, “Don’t think too much. You are the person I chose. No one will dare criticize you. You just have to stay with me.”
Xie He shut his eyes. His nose was filled with Liang Chengshan’s scent. This scent intoxicated him. It had been his only salvation in the darkness.
But...he couldn’t continue to rely on the other.
Xie He pushed Liang Chengshan away and said coldly, “I want to rest on my own for a little while.”
As he said these words, he forced himself to endure the scalp-numbing fear and sense of loss. His body and soul both screamed at him to not do this. He had to love Liang Chengshan and rely on him. But the last of his reason told him&#k2026;this could not go on. He had to find out the truth. He had to make the right choice.
He could not continue to drown in ignorance.
Liang Chengshan felt the emptiness of his arms. This was the first time Xie He had pushed him away since he had been let out. It was also the first time he treated him so coldly. For a moment, Liang Chengshan wondered whether Xie He had remembered....
He bore into Xie He’s eyes but didn’t reach out to hug him again. He stood up and gently said, “Okay, I won’t disturb you.”
He then left.
Xie He shut his eyes and lay back down onto the bed.
【Xie He：Help me keep a careful eye on Uncle Liang. I need to find an opportunity to trigger myself. That way, I can create an opportunity for me to ‘regain my memories’. Smile.JPG】
【444：(⊙v⊙) Mn!】
【Xie He：Give Bishop some clues as well. Otherwise, they’ll never find out who I am. Back then, Yang Jin had hidden his wife and son very well before becoming an undercover cop. Liang Chengshan had also trusted him very much. That’s why no one had known that he had a wife and son. After he escaped, Yang Jin had known that he would die when Liang Chengshan had found him, so he made sure to hide Yang Ling well to ensure his son’s survival. Liang Chengshan still doesn’t know that Yang Jin had a son. Therefore, he hasn’t thought in that direction at all. Moreover, Yang Ling had wiped clean all information on himself and also had Hall’s help with concealing his identity. More than ten years has already passed. Unless he knows where to look, it’s going to be very difficult to uncover Yang Ling’s true identity....Liang Chengshan would never think that Yang Jin had a son, not even in his dreams, let alone that this son had come looking for revenge fifteen years later. Smile.JPG 】
【444：Okay! But what should I leak? _(:зゝ∠)_】
【Xie He：Yang Ling looks much more like his mother, Ji Ling. Let Bishop discover Ji Ling. He will slowly be able to figure out just who Yang Ling is then. 】
【444：(⊙v⊙) Mn...Yi, wait a second, why are we letting him find out?】
【Xie He：Baby, it’s all for Favourability points, ah. Liang Chengshan’s attitude at Yang Jin’s grave was not quite what I had expected. He obviously doesn’t hate Yang Jin very much. He even feels guilty. It’s obvious that the two of them were very good friends back then.... If Liang Chengshan only hated Yang Jin for betraying him, then I would never let him know my true identity. That would only lower the Favourability Value and increase the difficulty of the capture. However, if Liang Chengshan feels guilty towards Yang Jin...hehe, that means I must let him know who I am. I’ll take all that guilt and remorse without any reservations. Smile.JPG】
【444：......】
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Liang Chengshan left Xie He on his own, but he didn’t leave the house. He was still very worried about Xie He.
Xie He had fainted at the cemetery and had had an episode at the restaurant without any warning. But there had been no darkness, nor had he been in a confined space, let alone had he come in contact with anything that should trigger him. According to this, none of this should have happened.... Liang Chengshan’s eyes darkened. What had happened today?
Xie He didn’t come out. This was the first time he had spent the night apart from Liang Chengshan since he had left the darkness. He shut his eyes tightly but he couldn’t sleep. Therefore, he just sat back up.
He sat like that all night. He looked exhausted.
The next morning, Liang Chengshan knocked on the door, his low and gentle voice transmitting through the wood. “Come eat.”
Xie He didn’t move. He didn’t want to see Liang Chengshan.
Three minutes later, Liang Chengshan knocked again. He said, “I have to go out and won’t be coming home tonight. You should come out and eat on your own.”
Indeed, Liang Chengshan left as he said he would.
Xie He listened to Liang Chengshan’s footsteps as they grew distant. A long time later, he finally opened the door and exited the room. The servants had already prepared breakfast for him. Xie He sat at the front of the table on his own. Halfway through the meal, he looked in front of him, at where Liang Chengshan usually sat. Typically, he’d look up and catch Liang Chenshan’s eyes, flashing him a warm and encouraging smile....
Xie He suddenly couldn’t eat anymore.
Liang Chengshan didn’t really have business to attend to. He could sense that Xie He didn’t want to see him right now, so he kept his distance. Xie He obviously had something on his mind. If he needed time to calm down on his own, then Liang Chengshan would give him space until he was able to think it through.
Moreover, Liang Chengshan had begun to feel impatient, wanting to figure out Xie He’s identity as soon as possible. He had a faint feeling that Xie He’s identity would be the key to understanding Xie He’s current condition. He had no clue what was happening to the other right now so he had no way of knowing what the correct course of action would be.
Liang Chengshan summoned Bishop and asked him, “Have you found out who Yang Ling is yet?”
Boss looked embarrassed. “I’m sorry, Boss. His educational history and background were all forged. Everything before three years ago, from when he approached Liang Ze, is fake. There are no clues. Even our spies in the police force say that there’s no such person associated with them.”
Liang Chengshan said coldly, “There is no such thing as a person who can leave no traces in this world. Keep looking.”
Bishop said, “Yes.” He turned around and was about to leave when he suddenly heard Liang Chengshan ask, “Right. That bodyguard named Gary, investigate him. See if there’s anything off about him.”
Liang Chengshan watched Bishop leave, his fingers intertwined as they laid on his abdomen. His gaze was dark. When something had happened to Xie He that day, Gary just so happened to be with him.... There was no such thing as coincidences in this world. Everything happens for a reason.
If someone felt like there was no way to explain something, that just meant they hadn’t found the cause.
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Xie He began to avoid Liang Chengshan. At night, after Liang Chengshan returned, he would shut the door and refuse to see him.
Liang Chengshan didn’t force him. He would only stand outside for a while and then leave.
Xie He listened to Liang Chengshan’s departing footsteps. He felt cold all over, sitting there alone. He hadn’t rested for two days already. When Liang Chengshan wasn’t with him, he felt anxious. He was exhausted from a lack of sleep.
On the third day, Xie He’s consciousness began to turn muddy. The extreme fatigue brought him back to that world where he couldn’t sleep and he didn’t have Liang Chengshan with him.... Pain made him unable to think rationally. He couldn’t do anything.
And then...he began to want to see Liang Chengshan.
He yearned for him.
Xie He rushed out and spoke in a raspy voice, “Where’s Liang Chengshan? Where is he...? I want to see him....”
The bodyguards and servants at the house had already received Liang Chengshan’s instructions. They were absolutely not allowed to prevent him from seeing Liang Chengshan. They immediately had a car drive him to where Liang Chengshan was. They absolutely had to comply to Xie He’s wishes.
In a villa on the outskirts of town, Gary was tied to a chair, completely covered in blood. Liang Chengshan knew that he had brought someone to secretly meet with Xie He, but the other would not confess no matter what he did!
Liang Chengshan glared at Gary with frigid eyes. This spy had hidden himself so deeply and had even affected Xie He. Unforgivable.
“Who did you let Yang Ling meet with? Who is Yang Ling?” Liang Chengshan asked coldly. “Tell me and I’ll grant you a quick death.”
Gary sneered. “Why should I tell you anything?”
Liang Chengshan said in an insipid voice, “Continue.”
His subordinates immediately continued to torture Gary. His mouth was stuffed and he could only make muffled groans. His eyes widened from the pain and his body spasmed. Contrary to what one would expect, he was a tough one.
Even though he had fainted several times, Gary never told them a single thing.
Liang Chengshan’s eyebrows knitted. He looked at his watch and saw that it was about time to head home. Xie He had avoided him for three days. He probably couldn’t hold on for much longer. Just then, a ruckus could be heard from outside. Someone very quickly came to tell Liang Chengshan that Xie He had come looking for him. He didn’t seem well and the people outside didn’t dare to stop him.
Liang Chengshan’s expression changed slightly. He immediately headed outside.
However, as soon as he opened the door, Xie He charged towards him, his head knocking against Liang Chengshan’s chest as he drilled into his embrace. The people behind him all looked awkward. They didn’t dare use any force on Xie He as they were afraid of hurting him.
Liang Chengshan was about to carry Xie He out but Xie He looked up suddenly. Behind Liang Chengshan’s shoulder, he caught sight of what was happening inside.
Gary, tied to a chair, had already fainted. He was all covered in blood....
There were torture instruments and guns on the table.
Gary was exposed. Gary was an undercover cop....He was discovered by Liang Chengshan so he would be killed soon....
Xie He’s eyes turned bloodshot....
Undercover. Traitor. Death. Blood....Anderson....Guns....
At this moment, his memories came rushing back. He gripped Liang Chengshan’s hands so tightly his knuckles turned white.
Liang Chengshan quickly carried Xie He out. This scene had indeed triggered him. He could feel how tightly Xie He was gripping his arm, his nails digging into his flesh. Xie He’s body was also shaking.
Liang Chengshan caressed Xie He’s back, a look of unease flashing through his eyes. Slowly, he asked, “What did you remember?”
Xie He had his eyes tightly shut. He didn’t dare open his eyes from the fear that Liang Chengshan would see the deeply-rooted hatred inside. That’s right...how could he have forgotten? He had once said that even if he died, he’d become a malicious spirit and would make sure Liang Chengshan wouldn’t lead a peaceful life.
He finally remembered.
This person had thrown him into endless darkness, tortured him, forced him to insanity, and made him submit to him. He had made Xie He forget everything and made him fall in love with the person he hated the most....
Liang Chengshan hugged Xie He tightly, his eyes dark and tone heavy. He asked again, “What did you remember?”