母女的秘密授课

“All of us?” Norbeat asked, it had been years since he was in the same body and now the young shifter had grown a little bit older. “We will go to Lucinda? The place where human live?” He raised his brows in question. “Would that be all right to do that?”

They had scoured the area around here for years and it was time to move to different place, so they could find more Chaos’s shattered soul.

There was one time Zuri asked them about why they helped Chaos, despite knowing in the end they would have the same fate like Chaos’s shattered soul, which meant they would die.

And their answer was very simple; they had lived long enough and it was time to put end to it, at least that was what Norbeat said, while Skylar was amorous enough toward Chaos that she would do anything for him, literally anything.

But, for Knox...

Zuri didn’t know what reason that he had. He was very quiet ever since July left six years ago and he couldn’t be bothered by that kind of question, as he would give Zuri sharp gaze before resuming whatever he was doing.

“Yes.” Chaos then darted his eyes at Zuri and added. “Except you, Zuri.”

Zuri was staring at the hearth, since this library assumed an old style, which made you think that you have moved to different era whenever you entered this place.

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Hearing that, Zuri snapped her head to look at Chaos, her brows furrowed. She must have heard it wrong, right?

“What do you mean except me?” She gave Chaos quizzical look, but he didn’t look at her at all, as he continued to talk to Knox.

“You heard him,” Skylar chimed in, her voice was filled with delight. She didn’t know why Chaos made such decision when it was very clear about how much he valued Zuri. He would go anywhere with her and would never leave her alone. One could say that whenever Zuri was there, Chaos as well and vice versa. “Lord Chaos doesn’t want you to come,” she sang happily.

“What do you mean, Chaos?” Zuri asked him again, she was standing from her seat and approached Chaos, but he was talking to Knox.

“Gael will help us to enter the place, you don’t need to worry,” Knox replied, as he leaned his body against one of the shelves, he looked exhausted, his face was slightly darker.

This was the conversation that they had since two weeks ago and only now was decided that they would go to Lucinda city.

They didn’t care about the dispute between human and supernatural creature, they needed to find Chaos’s shattered soul there and then to take the dragon shifter back from those people’s hand.

They must have run an experiment on him now, but they were sceptic there was something they could find out. Killian would be fine, until they came to take him back.

“Chaos!” Zuri grabbed his sleeve. “We need to talk.”

Ever since Chaos returned her back to her own bedroom when they visited the tree and found his shattered soul there, he didn’t really speak to her and she could feel that he was avoiding her.

And now this. If before she thought, he was only busy with Knox, because there was something that the two of them needed to be discussed, which was not strange at all, but what Chaos said earlier was a blatant proof that he didn’t want to be near her anymore.

But why? What did she do wrong?

“Chaos, we need to talk,” Zuri said in low voice, when Chaos kept talking to Knox. She didn’t want to act childishly, but she needed his attention and didn’t want to wait any longer.

On the other hand, Chaos glanced at her and then nodded, as he walked toward the door, telling Knox that they would talk about Gael later on.

Gael had been in Lucinda city and it would be a great help for them.

“Why are you forcing yourself?” Skylar grumbled, she crossed her arms in front of her chest when she watched how Zuri walked out of the library room. “You should accept that decision, you know.”

Upon hearing that mocking tone in her voice, Zuri threw her a dagger look, but she didn’t have any intention to teach her a lesson, like she used to whenever she tried to provoke her, because right now, she needed to find out what the reason behind that absurd decision.

She was needed when it came to finding out his shattered soul and she was more useful than Knox to find them. it was not logical to leave her behind to stay in this manor.

“Tell me what is it?” Zuri asked Chaos when he stopped walking, his back against her.

“I can’t take you with me, Zuri,” Chaos said blatantly. He turned around and regarded her with impassive gaze. His was breath shallow.

“Why you can’t?” Zuri walked closer to him and he didn’t budge, he had his arms crossed in front of his chest and stared at her. Her height only reached his shoulder, but she managed to make him do the impossible, bring her back to live and go through countless hardship willingly. “You don’t see me as useful anymore?”

There was a frown between his brows. “I have never seen you that way. You are not a tool.”

“You said, you keep them because they are useful.” What Hazel meant was Norbeat, Knox and the other shattered soul that he kept close to him. “You avoid me because you don’t see me useful anymore?”

There was an accusation in her voice, since she couldn’t help it, she didn’t like the way Chaos looked at her right now, as if he was in pain and those beautiful blue eyes clouded with a lot of emotions when she said that.

“You are not them. You will never be them.” Chaos averted his gaze and then glanced at the garden next to them. “You are not my shattered soul. I keep them because they are useful, yes, but you are not them.”

“What me then?” Zuri prodded. “Why don’t you want to take me with you?” she narrowed her eyes before she continued. “Because you thought I can’t control my feeling?”

Zuri had this suspicion for a while and now she voiced out what she thought about the reason why he avoided her.

“You don’t want me to come with you because I can’t control my feeling? Because I took pity on the people that became your shattered soul?” she asked again.

There was no answer from Chaos, but that was already an answer for Zuri.

She sighed deeply. “You don’t need to think about that. That is my own feeling, I will take care of it.” She wrapped her arms around Chaos’s body and buried her face against his chest.

However, Chaos didn’t give her any reaction. Usually, he would hug her back and tell her that he had made rush decision, but not now.

Feeling how strange this was, Zuri raised her head and then looked at Chaos with knitted brows. What now? Why he acted like this?

Chaos stared down at her, as his expression remained impassive, he didn’t look like he was going to say something or rescinded his decision.

“I will go with you to Lucinda city or wherever you want. I will find every shattered soul for you, so stop being difficult.” Zuri’s hazel eyes burned with determination, but still, Chaos said nothing.

In the end, Zuri released his body and took a step back, as she met his eyes.

“I can see you clearly that day.” Finally, Chaos opened his mouth. “I can see pain in your eyes and your resentment for me.”

Zuri startled when Chaos said that. Yes, she was in pain because she had to end an innocent boy’s life, but the resentment...

Did she start to feel that toward Chaos?

Yet, Zuri couldn’t say for sure if she didn’t feel that way for him. She gritted her teeth. She wanted to retort that was not how she felt, yet she couldn’t bring herself.

“You don’t need to feel guilty,” Chaos said gently. He stretched out his hand and caressed her cheek. “You don’t have to feel that way.”

And after that, he turned around and then walked away. He didn’t offer any words and just accepted that Zuri started to resent him.

However, how could she let him left with that thought? Even if she felt that way, she didn’t want him to believe that.

“Chaos!” Zuri rushed after him and then yanked his hand to turn him around and faced her again. “I don’t know what you are talking about. Why should I resent you?”

“You can’t lie to me, Zuri.” Chaos smiled, but that smile didn’t reach his eyes at all. “You can lie to anyone, but not to me.”

Zuri gritted her teeth and determined to deny it until the end.

“I will see you often. This is not an issue for us. You can stay here and manage this place.”

“Are you out of your mind?” Zuri narrowed her eyes. “Since when I like this place until I have any desire to manage it?” she sneered.

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