BXBX NOVEL Chapter 251 - Don't You Want Me?
Lu Xun frowned, wondering what was going on in his girlfriend's mind at this time. His head tilted to one side as he continued to look at her.
Song Xing Xing was staring back at him with her reddened face and a pair of watery eyes.
The look on her face showed that she was going to cry anytime soon.
His heart grew restless. Lu Xun wondered if his girlfriend was upset after what had happened earlier. She looked so brave facing that woman, Xu Jiao. But who knew what was really in her heart.
If Song Xing Xing started to cry because of him, then what was he supposed to do? He did not have much experience coaxing someone.
He finally composed himself and asked, "What type?"
Song Xing Xing sat up straight to meet his gaze. "Like that woman. Busty and curvy." She bit at her lips and whispered. "Seductive."
Lu Xun was startled. He could not understand why his girlfriend would think that he liked someone like Xu Jiao. Earlier, did he give any hint to show that he liked Xu Jiao? Other than annoyance and anger, Lu Xun was pretty sure that he did not show any other emotion towards Xu Jiao.
"Why are you asking me this?"
"Answer me."
"I don't think that I have a type. When I like someone, it would not be for the person's physical look." He brushed her cheek with his thumb. "Song Xing Xing, I did not like you because of how you look like if that is what you wanted to know. I like you because it's you."
Song Xing Xing frowned. His reply was not the answer that she was looking for.
"Then… why don't you want me?"
"What do you mean?" He held the person in his arm tightly, wondering the reason behind her insecurities. "Of course I want you."
"I did not mean that." Song Xing Xing took a deep breath to calm down. Her hand stretched up to touch his chest. "Don't you want me, want me?"
Song Xing Xing bit her lips. Her eyes were looking deeply into his. She was too embarrassed to speak to him on this topic but hoped that he would understand her meaning.
However, looking at the look on his face, Song Xing Xing had a hunch that he did not understand his meaning. It made her grow anxious and frustrated.
Song Xing Xing wished that she had grabbed that bottle of wine from that woman earlier. Perhaps, with the help of alcohol, she would be more courageous.
"Each time that you kissed me, you would always pull away without doing anything. You have been avoiding me." Her face grew redder the moment she said those words. "Was it because you find me unattractive?"
His throat bobbed. Lu Xun was not expecting that his girlfriend would suddenly ask him something like this. His expression grew uneasy and he did not know how he should answer her question.
At this time, Song Xing Xing was seated on his lap. This topic was not suitable to discuss while they were in this position.
He wanted her.
The girl in his embrace was soft and fragrant. Song Xing Xing did not need to have a curvy body for him to like her. He liked her just the way she is.
Each time that he had kissed her, it took him a lot of willpower to pull away from her. It was hard for him to restrain himself.
He wanted her very much but he had some reasons why he did not want to touch her.
"It's not that."
"Then why?"
"Xing Xing, we are not in a hurry."
Song Xing Xing lowered her gaze. She also knew that they were not in a hurry. However, she would often hear that when a man likes a woman, he would find it hard to control himself.
But her boyfriend was someone who would always restrain himself.
It made her wonder just how much he liked her. She started to believe the netizen's words that her boyfriend might have some unspeakable problem.
Because she liked him very much. She wanted to be together with him all the time, kissing him, and touching him.
"You said that this is the first time you liked someone," Lu Xun said. "Xing Xing, I did not want to rush things with you. I wanted you to experience the dating process slowly. Do you understand what I mean?"
When he get together with her, he did not have any hidden intention. He liked her and thought that she is someone who could make him happy. They are compatible.
Moreover... Lu Xun was aware that Song Xing Xing's father was still unconvinced that he would be the best for his daughter. Because of that, he was always careful when he was with her.
He still needed her father's permission and blessings to marry Song Xing Xing.
If he did something to this girl, Lu Xun was afraid that he will have to forget about his intention to marry her. Perhaps, her father would come and kill him first.
Song Xing Xing lowered her head to avoid his gaze. Her forehead was resting on his chest. It took her a while to process his words and then, she nodded slowly.
"We still have a long way between us." He put a finger under her chin and forced her to look up at him again. Lu Xun leaned forward and peck at her forehead. "Don't stress yourself over this. Let's take everything slow, between us, alright?"
Moreover... if he wanted to go into the next phase with his girlfriend, he wanted to make it very special.
Song Xing Xing nodded again, deciding to trust his words.
Lu Xun heaved with relief, thinking that this matter was finally over.
Suddenly, a thought came to his mind and he asked, "Xing Xing, have you been worrying about this matter for the past few weeks?"
He seemed to remember her enthusiasm each time that he kissed her. The corner of his lips tilted up slightly. The thought that she wanted to take the initiative to move into the next phase with him made him happy.
"Don't laugh." The smile on his face made her uncomfortable. Song Xing Xing did not want Lu Xun to think that she's a silly girl.
She did not have to answer him to admit that has been thinking about it a lot.
Lu Xun bit his cheek. His eyes were staring back at her with a pair of innocent eyes. "I'm not laughing."
Song Xing Xing narrowed her eyes as she observed him. Once he was sure that he was not laughing at her, Song Xing Xing leaned her head on his chest again and hugged him tightly.
She did not know whether he was telling her the truth but for now, Song Xing XIng decided that she was going to trust his words - that the reason he was not doing anything was that he was considerate towards her.
After a while, Song Xing Xing pulled away and looked at him again. "Then, can I stay here tonight?"