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Chapter 183 The reason

"I didn’t know what happened after I fell but I found out that Big Gray saved me. When I woke up, I couldn’t remember anything about Yu Chen or you guys. I lost all the memories that were connected to him. My memories only returned last night. I think the accident made me remember everything." Luo Xiaolei was wiping her tears as she continued explaining.

Kyuu and Juu on the other hand looked very shocked.

"You fell and... lost your memories?" Kyuu asked again. He was still in disbelief.

When Luo Xiaolei nodded, he shook his head, as if it was really hard for him to believe the story he heard.

"What happened after that day? Tell me, what do you mean he was waiting for me? I was sure none of you were in the woods anymore when I came back. You guys left me that day, so why are you saying I left him?" Luo Xiaolei was so confused. The number of questions just kept on increasing, blowing her mind.

Kyuu stared intently at her, and then, he tugged his hair as he crouched down.

"We didn’t know... We didn’t know that you came back... that you fell... that you lost your memories." He replied, shaking his head. "If only we knew... Chen wouldn’t have..." he shook his head again before he finally looked at her and began telling her what happened.

"That day the police came, we left the woods. A chopper that Chen’s grandfather sent came to get us. Chen refused to leave but due to his wounds, he passed out. He fell unconscious for two days but the moment he woke up, he insisted on returning to this village despite knowing that the place wasn’t safe anymore. His grandfather didn’t give in so we escaped. As per Chen’s instruction, we hijacked his grandfather’s chopper and we returned to the woods. Knowing that no one could stop him, his grandfather was forced to agree to his terms and send more men to protect him in the woods.

"That day we returned, Chen waited for you at the rock but you never came. He went to check on you at your house and we saw you. You were fine, laughing with your grandparents. You looked happy. We didn’t dare show up because you were always surrounded with people, unlike before. Chen didn’t have a choice but to wait for you to come but you didn’t. You never came, as if you decided to forget about our existence. As the days passed by, Chen was becoming more and more miserable, so we helped him sneak into your house. We helped him enter your room through your window at night while you were asleep, but he didn’t wake you up, we don’t know why. He did that many times until one night, you woke up while he was still in your room. I was standing by in the window when that happened. Do you know what you said the moment you saw him? You asked him who he was. You even looked terrified of him as you frantically ran towards the door to leave.

"You don’t know how devastated Chen was when we left that night. But the next morning, Chen still decided to stay. The assassins didn’t stop coming. His life was always in danger, day after day, as he waited for you to come see him in the woods again. And then one day, we watched you leave. You were waving with a big smile that day to your grandparents. Chen might have been thinking about what you have told her that day, that you hated him and never want to see him again...

"After that... he changed. We stayed in the woods for five more months until winter ended. We don’t know why he stayed even though you had already left. Chen never said a word about you since then. We were sent to Country H once Chen agreed to leave, but his body suffered too many injuries during our stay in the woods that his body ended up developing more strange conditions. His bleeding disorder worsened since then..." Kyuu’s voice now trailed off as he gazed at her.

Xiaolei’s tears didn’t stop falling the entire time he was telling her what happened. She was shocked and was so hurt just by listening to him. She remembered that her grandparents were forced to send her back to Central City because of the unrest in the woods but when the killings stopped, her grandparents took her back so she lived in Snowflakes Village for many years until she was eighteen.

She didn’t have any idea. She didn’t know all these things had happened. And it hurt. It hurt her so much. She couldn’t imagine how Yu Chen would have felt as he waited for her. She couldn’t imagine how he would have felt as he watched her from afar, thinking that she really hated him and didn’t want to see him ever again. She couldn’t believe that he had suffered so much while she leisurely lived a normal life without even remembering him.

Luo Xiaolei slowly dropped down to the ground. Her legs felt weak and her body felt like it had no energy left. She felt like her whole world had turned upside down in just a matter of days. Who knew that her finally meeting Yu Chen again in this life would end like this. Just when she finally remembered him, he fell into a coma. She couldn’t even tell him about what happened to her, to explain everything to him.

Why? Why did she had to forget him? Why did she never remember Yu Chen in her past life? Why?

Luo Xiaolei finally found an answer to why she returned back in time. No matter how painful it was, she wanted to remember everything, to know everything that had happened. She thought that Yu Chen must have been the reason why she was given a chance to live again.

Because she had to remember him. Because she had to be with him.